Saturday, September 13, 2008

Some day story.

We all are going to play games, we all like to play. Someone like to play sport games, someone table games, strategies, games of chance. Are we playing in relationships, are we playing whan saying - I love you, need you, don't know what will do without you? Maybe it is a game for making addiction, way how to accustom person? This is question about what I was thinking some time ago. Just life story, occasion and experience. I can't stop thinking about aim in this possible game. Maybe we are feeling not so perfect, needed, some complex or these players are feeling too brave, to allmighty? What are the reasons..? Is it whish to crush a person next to you, to make as much pain as you can? Too many questions without answers. I suppose that going deeper in psyhology we can find answers. I went .. I found some, but after search, I wondered that they were unimportant for me. I felt used and crashed, without visible scar and bruises. It was one of interesteng ways how to understand, how to get up, to get more stronger, to feel some sense of win. Understanding is first step to forgiveness, to the next level. Resault was that I felt as winner, as person, who get stronger and better, to person, that is not a victim anymore.

It was game of crashies and love, strange, but strong combination, with addiction, manipulation and feelings. Like a screw. Playtime was nice, interesting and amazing, but the last round made it painful, with thin plot and without rules. The game had no rules at all. The worst thing that you can make is to keep the ball rolling after decision, not to let your playperson to go out of game, to make situations, to trying to continue making suffer person who were next to you, who was yours. It's poorly. On another hand you give chance for person to get stronger, to make rules, to make your crash, to work out a strategy, to get smarter and live more easily, because of absurdity. Every coin has two sides. Is it smart to keep the ball rolling and not to end the relationship game? It was one side of coin ..

You are going to ask what is other side of coin? Simply - feelings, uncontrolled stuff. As leader, as everyone in this game can get false and loose, this can be one of reasons why the game is not going to be ended. It is strange, here is no relationships anymore, just hybrid of missing reality. Winner will be one of two persons who played this game, because one still will be feeling or maybe loving. Important is to step over feeling, to leave them behind, to end feeling game from your side, but unfortunately you can't make decision for both. Is it a way to win, when step over feelings, but not going out of game? Is it possible?

* Someone said that life and everyday is too boring, so we start to make it complicated, without real statement of reasons.

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